THE MAN WHO LOST A THOUGHT: Disbarred from God (Post XVI)

The sad man related how his life in the Society of Jesuits had started. How the religious exercises made him think about himself and the world. How the introspection and extrospection made one feel comfortable about God and the world in general.

Based on the last few hours of the story he was telling I wondered what was coming next.


“Remember the conspiracies that I mentioned? I was sure that these stories were the result of late eighteenth and nineteenth century problems with the Freemasons.”

“However, it became apparent that even the Spanish Inquisition had problems with the Jesuits. This was followed by problems with the reformationists. Popular anti-Jesuit thinking in France was set on fire by several books; both academic and novel. Germany, from the 1870’s until the early 1900’s, required the Jesuits to disband and desist from engaging in their practices. Even the Nazi regime treated the Jesuits with disdain and loathing.”

“I suppose that I was influenced in the wrong direction by the stories of these conspiracies. I begin to wonder if every elitist across Europe could be wrong about the Jesuits. Was there something within the society that made them so hated? Surely it could be jealousy if nothing else.”

“But the society did appear to have secrets even when there was nothing to hide. They were an elite group of men and surely human nature does not allow one group of elites to live harmoniously with other groups of elites. That is the basis of war.”

“Then again, within such a group of learned men that made up the society there indeed had to be a substantial amount of arrogance. This may have been the cause; even though the spiritual exercises attempted to make the novice aware of the pitfalls of arrogance. Was the society perceived as arrogant?”

“Eventually my enthusiasm for the Jesuit life waned. I had learned much and was slated to become a professor within the society. But the structure of the Jesuit life, even though enlightening, seemed to keep me from creating original thoughts.”

“It finally dawned on me that I would not recover my LOST ORIGINAL THOUGHT in that environment. I was asked to stay on. When they finally realized that I was seeking something previously lost they decided to cut their own loses.”

“I was removed from the society.”

And then the sad man walked away from me a short distance; but stopped.



About Waldo "Wally" Tomosky

I am proud of my work life (not the jobs, just the work).  Bait monger  Lawn mower  Paper boy  Windshield cleaner in a drive-in theater (if you don't know what a drive-in theater is there is no sense in you reading any farther)  Snack shack janitor in a drive in theater (ditto for drive-in theater)  Milling machine clean-up boy in a tool and die shop  Plastic injection press operator  Centurion in the US Army  Factory hand  Apprentice boy  Tool and die maker  Software user manual writer  Computer programmer  Ex-patriate par excellence  Engineering manager  Software test manager  Retiree  University administrator  System analyst  Retiree (2nd try)  Licensed amateur paleontologist  Retiree (3rd try)  Shovel bum (archaeology)  Retiree (4th try)  Delivery driver  Retiree (5th try)  Graduate student (skipped AA and BA due to the level of difficulty)  Retiree (finally got the drift of it) I have been writing for fourteen years and have fifteen books on Amazon/Kindle. Some horror, some twisted, some experimental, some essay and a few historical. I think that now I will really, really, really retire and just write. Lets see if I can do retirement correctly this time!
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3 Responses to THE MAN WHO LOST A THOUGHT: Disbarred from God (Post XVI)

  1. Not active but been a mason 40 years. The most diabolical things in which I ever participated was deciding if the carpet should be white or cobalt blue and if the paneling should be cherry or walnut.

    • I am Catholic and my best fishing buddy was a Mason.
      He would pick on me about the priest chasing the alter boys around the alter with that smoking crucible and I would pick on him about all his secret hand-shakes and winking.
      We remained the best of friends until he died from cancer.

  2. Reblogged this on waldotomosky and commented:

    Episode Sixteen

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