The sad man’s college experience left him empty. His college deferment was cancelled and he was drafted into the army. He did not feel comfortable about placing other draftees in jobs that did not fit – – – but it was the “army way.” He frequently visited the chaplain; partially for guidance and partially for atonement through confession.
I was ready to hear his post-war confession.
“By the end of the war the chaplain and I had become good friends.”
“I had told him about my lost thought and the time that I had seen the meaning of the Trinity. I asked him if my thoughts of the Trinity were original and he said ‘Sadly they are not. Your lost thought must be about another subject.’”
“He then informed me that even though someone else had defined the meaning of the Trinity my thoughts had been original to me. In fact he told me that I must have some unique type of intelligence because I was able to think about the Trinity and finish my doctoral degree.”
“He then suggested that I look into joining the church as a Jesuit priest.”
” He added ‘With your educational background and logic you would be more than welcome.'”
“And so; I left the U.S. Army without finding my lost thought. However, I had been given a new path and opportunity to find that thought.”
“My hopes were elevated as I looked into the organization.”
“The Jesuits, founded by St. Ignatius Loyola, believed in a regimen of spiritual exercises. These exercises involved the mind, memory, will and imagination. This had to be what I was seeking.”
“The Jesuits had established thousands of schools, colleges and universities. In addition to education they also believed in exercising the mind, training the memory, strengthening the will and training yourself to be imaginative, creative and to seek original thoughts. I surely would find my lost thought in the Jesuit organization.”